07/03/2025

Today... since I was on my period before, this is my first time fasting. Since yesterday, I haven't been feeling really good... it just feels bad. I think my rhinitis allergy and eczema are flaring up again. I just want to sleep right now... but of course, I can't do that.

Right now in the office, Berharap Pada Timur by Salma is playing. I'm wearing a mask, hoping it will reduce my rhinitis... :( I don't really have anything to do right now, so yeah, I'm writing this.

Currently, I'm craving UDONNN... udon in Japan. I want to go to Japan... when will that happen? InsyaAllah soon. Of course, before that, I want to go for Umrah and Hajj first. But Japan has always been my dream destination.

OH yeah, today... he — my high school crush — updated his story again. I don't want to see it, of course. I've made my own closure to forget him. There are so many reasons why I don't want to start anything with him at all.

1. He was my classmate... ew. I don't want to marry someone from the same class as me. It's not like I hate them, but the image I had of them in high school still lingers until today — and it's not very good. :))

2. Since we were classmates, we have too many mutual friends... and I hate that.

3. He has a lot of ex-girlfriends, mostly long-term relationships. I'm sure you're wondering, "What's wrong with having exes?" Well... nothing's wrong, actually. But for me, I want someone who's motae solo like me. I want my prince charming to have zero exes — just like me. I want us to be each other's first and last.
   Cliché? I know... hhh.

4. I want someone who lives outside Palembang because I really want to get out of this f*cking town.

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Okay! That's the reason...
But you guys know damn well, it's not that easy to forget him, right? Because... I don't have anyone else.

I hope soon... I can find someone whom I can like better than him.

oh lets go back to UDON! i want to break my fast with udon right now...just imagine the warm soup that will soothe my sore throat...DANGGGGGG YA ALLAH PLEASE GIVES ME THE UDON FOR TODAYYY. AAMIIINNN! im sure i will get it. (is it a sin to see a food when we are fasting?)

If we're talking about other things...
Let's talk about my impulsive buying habits, shall we? Before, I was obsessed with thrift sweaters... Right now... I'm trying so hard not to impulsively buy LIPTINTTTT — OMG they're so freakin' cuteeeeeee I can't handle it. 😭😭😭 Let's see if I can resist this time.

Maybe you guys already realize it, but I don't have anything to write right now. Like, at all. 😃 So, bye!

...Eh, should I tell you guys about my morning today? Or to be exact, my sahoor.

SOOO, the night before, I already asked my cintaku, sigmaku to wake me up for sahoor tomorrow. Of course, she said, "JUST ASK SOMEBODY ELSE," "DON'T TOUCH ME," "WHY ARE YOU SO ANNOYINGGG" — then went back to her bedroom (before that, she was in front of the TV playing on her phone 😒).

So I asked Azima, my other little sister, to wake me up — and she said "Okay". Oh, that was easy, huh?

Turns out... the next day, they didn't wake me up at all. I think it was God's will that I woke up by myself, and the first thing I said was "PARAH." (How could they not wake me up??!!! 😭)

Thank God it was still sahoor timeee, so I quickly ate the rice, chicken, and tofu on the table. While eating, a thought crossed my mind — "Maybe... it's not that they didn't wake me up... maybe they didn't wake up at all?" 🤡

And yeah... when I checked the master bedroom to grab a drink — they were still sleeping. Only mom was awake, and she said,
"Why didn't you wake them up?"
"Mom, I just woke up too... I thought they already had sahoor."

After that, they woke up, drank water as soon as possible, and went back to sleep... oh, and prayed first of course 🤣.

We did tadarus juz 7, just the three of us, because Hasmi? Yeah... no use trying to wake her up. Then I took a bath, swept the floor while waiting for mom to take me to work — but it's not gonna happen, me think... because it was already 7.43 and the car still needed to refill gas.

Ain't got no time for that 🚶‍♀️, so I ordered Gojek — and thankfully, I arrived JUST IN TIME. 08.00!

Right now, what I'm listening to is Sialan by Juicy Luicy ft. Mahalini. The only thing that crossed my mind was the vocalist... the one who had plenty of scandals? Idk if it was a sex scandal or not — but a scandal for sure. A bunch of girls already came out about it...

Another thing that crossed my mind was how strained their voices sound.====================

right now, at 10.16, hasmi messaged the family group "tadarus blm hari inii" 

HAAAA, you're the one who didn't! We've already done it :) I tried to wake her up, but it wasn't successful... so yeah, hh.

waw rn, the office playing all the ost from korean drama and it makes me much comfortable hahahahhah korean drama is really my inner child huh? (11:24 a.m)