HIIIIIIIIII, I HAVE A NEW CRUSH EVERYONEEEEEEE HAHAH

So... goodbye heartbreak, hello butterflies! WKWKWK
Good news: I have a new crush to replace Irfan! 🎉

Well, I hope this boy can replace him?? He's actually my junior from high school...
And honestly, I already noticed him back then because he was freakin' handsome and, no kidding, totally my type (he kinda looks like Irfan too... well, I guess I really do have a type huh 😭).

Anyway, this morning I accidentally saw his twin on my second account — at first I thought it was him, because... well, I forgot his name LOL.
Turns out it was his brother... and his Instagram is locked so I can't stalk properly right now. 😔
I swear I followed him before, but maybe I unfollowed him? Idk.

But when I saw him again today, I was like, wow. His face? Still completely out of my league 😭
His job? EVEN WORSE (for me, not him). Bro works at Pertamina. He’s literally rich, tall, and handsome... hello, main character energy much??? 🥹✨

Weirdly though, instead of getting discouraged, it made me wanna be better too, yk??
Like — girl, get your life together! Secure that bag! Take care of yourself! Maybe one day you could stand next to him without looking like an unpaid intern 😭

I want to follow him again, but idk... he's close with someone I knew from college, my senior... and I'm terrified that if I suddenly follow him, he'll be like:
"WHO THE HECK IS THIS GIRL?! WHY IS SHE FOLLOWING ME?? DO YOU KNOW HER???"
And then my senior will expose me and it will be my 13th reason 😭

Oh yeah, little trivia:
His twin brother’s girlfriend is actually pretty short, like me!
(Of course, she’s way prettier 🥲)
BUT STILL. SHORT. Which means, maybe, just maybe, this lil' shortie still has a chance??? 😭🙏
Not saying I’m as cute as her, but between "cute girl" and "cold city girl," I’m definitely closer to "cute girl" HAHA.

Anyway, last desperate hope:
Please let him be single now...
Last time I checked he had a girlfriend, but maybe not anymore?? 🙏

And sometimes I wonder...
Why am I always the one crushing first?
Why am I always the one making an effort?
Why can’t someone — who is my type — crush on me first and run after me for once???

If you're out there, please come...
I swear I’ll welcome you with open arms 😭🤲