at this point, i dont even know what is love anymore.

Yup, just like the title. I don’t f*ckin’ know.
At this “old” age — 25 — I don’t think I’ve ever truly been in love before? Like, the way I quickly shift crushes from one to another.
Especially my old crush from high school.
Yesterday, I felt brokenhearted, and now? I don’t even feel anything anymore.
It’s just like… what the hell were you even feeling all this time if you could let go this easily?!
Hhh. fff

Ya Allah, I’m writing this so You can grant my wishes.
People say if we write what we want, it’ll come faster, right?

So… first:
Ya Allah, I hope my soulmate, my soon-to-be husband, comes soon — like this week please! 🙏
And I hope he’s totally my type, in terms of looks, personality, everything.

Second, Ya Allah, I hope I can travel the world You created so beautifully. 🌍
Third, Ya Allah, I hope me and my whole family can live happily ever after, stay healthy, get richer, and go to Hajj together — with full devotion. 🕋
Fourth, I hope I can be beneficial to this world and be happy every single day. ☀️
Fifth, I hope I can pass the BUMN selection this time.
Sixth, I hope my whole family can go on a vacation abroad, somewhere beautiful and joyful.

Aameen.
Ya Allah, please grant all my wishes.
Please…