07/03/2025

14 September?
Yeah, I think that's the date! Do you know what that date is about?
It's the first day of my job as a visual designer (DKV).

Actually... I don't think I'm that creative? I don't know — other people can judge that, but one thing for sure is I enjoy being a visual designer more than a data scientist.

On my first day, at around 11.00 AM, I was already at Barong Hotel to meet Mr. M, the manager of my division — Marketing. But at that time, I didn't meet him right away. Instead, I met Mb. K first.

What I remember the most from that day is how tired I was climbing up three floors — and yeah... so we went to the office, and I just sat there awkwardly. Inside, there were four girls, all smiley and friendly — especially Mb. D. She's always laughing, so I got a good first impression from her. The other two girls beside me, G and S, were really friendly too!

G would often ask me to play a word game from her phone together, and S is the type of girl who's just naturally warm and friendly.

Meanwhile, Mb. K... well, she's pretty scary for me. For months, I felt very uncomfortable around her. She's just... very moody, so I always felt afraid to do anything wrong.

Behind me, there were Mb. Y and Mb. F, who hold high positions here — so naturally, I was scared of them too... hh. But surprisingly, Mb. Y is very calm and friendly, which made me feel more at ease. Mb. F is also really nice and supportive — but deep down, I know they're both scary people...

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Right now, 06/03/2025 is the day I officially retrieve my diploma from here — the one I had to leave as a requirement when I first started working. and its the fasting months!

I'm sick today, so I don't really feel good... but let's continue my journey from the first paragraph.

What I got from 6 months working here is... a really valuable experience. The environment here has helped me become a better person — not just work-wise, but personally too.

Thanks to working here, I got to know about mindfulness, or meditation you can call. — something I never thought I would try. After every meditation session, there's always a sharing session where we listen to experiences from the older employees. I think that's really fun and beneficial for the future.

One thing I really appreciate is how Mb. F always encourages employees to read books. Because of that, I started reading too! (Actually, I've always liked reading, but... knowing myself, I always procrastinate — later, later, and later.)

But of course, there are some things that I didn't like about working here.

1.There's only one day off per week... and it's really, REALLY hard for me.

2. There's no day off for us, even on national holidays.

3. On important days like Lebaran... we only get one day off.

4. The wage... yeah, I just hope I'll get a better one next month.

I think that's all...? Hmm... what else should I tell...?
Oh, did I already tell you about Mr. A? He's the owner... I don't think I've told you yet, right?

Okay... so... he's really a wise person.
Just like Mb. F, he really encourages the employees to become better — both skill and personality-wise.

And yeah... fun fact! It's actually a family business. The place I'm working at. Mb. F... is Mr. A's daughter. Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you about the two new employees... but maybe later.

OK, right now I will tell you a story about my life. My private life! But I don't really know where I should start...

OK! Actually, the thought of writing a journal like this has been stuck in my mind for a week. In my mind, I wanted to write it in my diary so when I get old later, I can read it for reminiscing. But yeah, idk, I wrote it in a blog instead — maybe because of my mood. And I'm pretty sure it won't last long because I don't really have anything to write every day... my mind is always blank on ordinary days.

Another thing I've been doing is learning guitar! I want to learn it every day, like one hour per day — but of course, I don't do that. So right now the total amount of time I've spent learning guitar is just ONCE... FREAKING ONCE! HHH.

Another thing that has been bugging my mind is my high school crush... the initial is I. I don't know, but it's been a long time since I had him in my mind. He's always been in the back of my mind. I think that's because I can't find someone I like as much as I liked him yet.

Actually, a few months ago, I started my effort by liking his story... after that, he started posting stories every day. Idk if it's just my feeling or just me being GR, but I think he likes the small attention I gave... but because of that, I was afraid that I became too transparent if I always saw his story, and he might get annoyed by me — so I didn't see some of his stories after that.

He saw my story, but what I had in my mind was... if he likes me, he will "like" my story too, right? But turns out he didn't like it... so I got my conclusion that he's not interested in me and I will back down... yeah, hahah, that's my love story.

For now, I just enjoy love stories from my friends like E, I, and V. They always have stories to tell about, and I like listening to them because I don't have anything going on like that...

Actually, I don't know about my future. I don't want to get married until my breast gets bigger. Yeah, it's weird, but it's my biggest complex. So I don't want to date right now because my bust hasn't gotten bigger. FYI, my bust is totally flat, like literally flat. So I don't know how to handle that. If my bust doesn't get bigger, I don't think I will have the confidence to get married.😊