birthday update

First of all, I'm currently listening to Karencici—and the song is so f*cking gooddd 😩🎧

Okay, birthday update!
It was actually pretty wholesome. It was my first time being celebrated by so many people like this... hehe. Even though, to be honest, it felt a bit burdensome—because I felt like I had to show just how grateful I was. You know what I mean, right? But of course, I am super grateful. Alhamdulillah, this year I got to celebrate my birthday surrounded by genuinely good people. 💛

The first surprise was from my marketing division—they brought me a cake and a laptop bag (literally the one thing I needed the most right now!). I thought that was it...
But nope.
When I went upstairs for mindfulness time, I got another surprise! And it was a Labubu cake!! It was so freaking cuteeeee 😭💘
But actually... I haven’t tasted either of the cakes yet, because I’M STILL IN MY COUGHING PHASE. OMG. WHEN WILL THIS COUGH END. I’M SUFFERINGGGG. 💀💀💀

Anyway—
I’ve already made up my mind that I’ll resign after one year of working here. But honestly, I have this annoying tendency to not want to disappoint anyone. I’m afraid people will be disappointed in me if I leave.
But I have to do this.
For my happiness.
I have to build a better version of myself.

I don’t even mind the wage, the job desk, or anything else really. But the biggest burden is that we only get one day off per week—no national holidays either. Since we’re in the F&B industry, that’s just how it is. 🥲

Another option I’m thinking about is following Vina’s path—going to college for my master’s and just working from home. Hmm. 😔

Okay, next update:
On April 15th, Hasmi had her graduation ceremony, so I traded my day off from Monday to Tuesday. Thankfully, it all worked out (even though I had to work two hours extra that week).

What else...?
Azima is going back to her pondok! And she’s flying alone! I’m so proud of her, but also kinda jealous tbh...
She’s younger than me, and yet she already flew by herself. Meanwhile, me—at 25—have never even been on a plane alone. Like... how?? Have I even grown up at all?? 😭 Everyone around me seems to be going far, doing amazing things, and here I am... still in Palembang.

I want to fly by myself, too.
To prove that I can do it.
To show that I can live on my own.
To show that I can be independent.
When will that day come...?
I don’t know. But hopefully soon.
Hopefully, one day I can go solo traveling... with peace, with joy, with freedom.

Oh yeahhh, more updates! Nisa gave me a birthday gift too (April 19, 2025)! It’s a journal bookkkk — super aesthetic, but actually more like a planner… and I’m so not a planner person WKWK.
But STILL, THANK YOUUUU! I didn’t expect her to get me a birthday gift too... now I have to get her one when her birthday comes. 😂