huhuhuuuuu, I NEED FKIN MONEYYYY BRUHHH I NEED FKIN HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

i dont know tf im supposed to do with this life.  

i’m 25 and i deadass don’t know what i’m doing.
i wanna leave, i wanna travel the world, touch ocean, sleep on some random beach, but guess what. no money. zero.
i tried makin money, tried affiliate, digital stuff, even joined giveaways like an idiot… no result.
right now i’m working as a graphic designer but the salary is tiny, and honestly it makes sense bc i’m not that good yet. like fr, i can’t even ask for more.

also still insecure about my body at this age. like how am i 25 and still hate mirrors lol.

i said i wanted to do a master’s degree, but i know deep down it’s just me running away. and let’s be real, i don’t have the money for that either.

i keep thinking like… if i had the guts or even the money to be reckless for once, maybe i’d just disappear and try something wild too.
but most of the time i’m just... tired. not even burnout, just emotionally buffering.

what’s really messing with me is this:
i wanna get out of this city
i wanna go somewhere
anywhere
but i can’t.

i only get one day off per week and it’s on a freakin monday.
so yeah, no quality time with friends or fam
on top of that, i am not getting accepted anywhere, failed government job tests left and right. i feel like im stuck in this zone.